Artistically Intelligent

…there you are at that bar the very next night and your eyes on me are the first thing I see when I walk through the door. You look pleased, I freak out and pretend you are not there- only you are, and your presence is overwhelming. I run to the bar and order shots of tequila. I take them. Soon you’re standing behind me with your arms around my waist whispering: “I know you saw me when you walked in.”
I die inside.

If I was a wolf then you were my den;

I nestled up and you settled in.

the blankets hang low
dreams drift over your head
you welcome the waves as they put you to bed

Last year right around this time we drove your car up to Jupiter so you could skim. I didn’t bring a bikini because I thought it would be too cold on the beach but I was wrong, and I ended up in my bra and panties all sprawled out on blanket on the sand. When you broke from skimming you would come lay next to me on the beach blanket, you were dripping with salty sea water. It was sunny that day and neither of us had sunglasses so you used your skimboard as a sun shield, like a sort of makeshift tent. And we kissed under that tent, the sun lit up your face. We talked about things I can’t remember now but what I do remember is that I’ve never been more in love in my life than I was in that moment with you.

We’re at a popular night club in Miami and I can’t figure out if I love you or not. You tell me that you love me with empty eyes and a hollow voice, as if you’re reading from a TelePrompTer. I say it back, but I say it as if I might get caught telling a lie. We are at the bar ordering shots of tequila because that’s the only thing you’ll drink besides Heineken. “Two more please!” I’m screaming at the bartender, tiptoeing on my heels so I can lean over the bar. “Can I have two more limes as well?”
We are waiting for the shots and the limes and I’m licking the top of my hand and pouring salt on it. When I look up you’re looking at me in a way that makes me sure that I love you and I fling my arms around your neck and kiss your face and declare: I LOVE YOU! You’re standing there with my arms around your neck and you say “Watch out with that salt.” And just like that I don’t love you anymore, and I’m sure of it. The shots arrive, we take them, then order four more.